I'm going to start by saying that I am mad, and extremely frustrated. Like. EXTREMELY frustrated.
You want to know all the things that make me really angry? When older people touch you on your shoulder or head really softly out of "kindness" i think it's icky and gross and I just really don't like. I would prefer a hug or to be left alone.
When people pretend to be super interested in everything you have to say but don't really give a shit. I would rather have someone completely not talk to me then ask me a shit ton of pointless questions. For example, "are you happy you chose to go to school in hawaii?" Yes, yes I am. Then I have to pretend that I'm extremely happy they're talking to me when I'd rather them just shut the fuck up.
I'm frustrated when people don't get out of bed till three o'clock pm. Especially when they are my boyfriend and I want to talk to them but they won't even text me because they now have to get ready for work and can't talk on the phone because their mother used up all their minutes. Then on top of all of that. I will be out of the country in less then a week and I won't even be able to text them how on earth will I even be able to talk to him while I'm gone for a month if he can't even get out of bed at a reasonable time?!?!?!?! >.< I am so angry right now it's difficult for me to even type.
If that wasn't enough I'm still stuck with babies crying every 10 minutes and then a 7 year old who keeps asking, "what's wrong, why are they crying?" why does it even matter when it's a constant thing that happens every 10 minutes? I just don't like children much. I also don't like it when I try to keep my blog from my family but they find out anyway because I forgot to block someone on my facebook. Yes. I do try to keep all of this away from my family. They probably wouldn't like me much if they knew exactly how I felt about everything. I usually just want to be left alone because the truth is, I'm a bit of a loner and like to be kept away, swept under a rug and forgot about. But hell. You would never know it because I pretend to like to be in big groups, when really I just like to be with one other person and no one else. I would be perfectly happy if I only knew and spent time with one person every minute of every day.
Off topic my boobs have gotten smaller I think. Or maybe it's the black causing the effect.
Still no text back. From any guy. Just a girl. I love her the best I think. She will always respond to any text message I ever send no matter how lame. Men, not so reliable these days.
Another thing. I hate hair and bugs. I really hate both. You know what I keep finding in the bed I'm sleeping in? Hair. Long strands of women's black hair. Groooossss. I also found a pubic hair on the toilet seat cover. Nasty. I just don't even know what to do in those situations.
As for bugs. Why are they attracted to light? It's a bad idea. They also like to attach themselves to you. Like today I was carrying two beach chairs back to the house and a tiny thing latched itself onto me then bit or stung me. I mean, seriously? Why? I didn't do anything to you. You choose to jump onto me and bite me for no good reason. What the hell? Also they like to swarm all your light so they attack your tv screen or computer screen then when it vanishes they attack you. Landing on you and being gross. If you happen to have your mouth open they fly in and oh, here's some extra protein for you.
Finally some semblance of male existence. Hello my love who I'm really mad at right now.
Anyhow. If all the bugs in the world were gone and everything could function the same without them I would be a much happier person.
I have no idea what I want to do. About living. And existing. I don't know where I want to stay the rest of my life. What I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm not even sure what I want to do 2 months from now. My step-dad today, who I have trouble getting along with, said that he'll be getting a wedding invitation to Hawaii in about twelve months. I was like, what on earth are you talking about, do you mean my dad? for those of you who don't know my dad is getting married in november in hawaii. then i said I doubt he'll be inviting you to his wedding because it's my dad and that would be super weird. But go figure he'd be talking about me and me getting married to the guy who i've been dating for...7 months now or 11 months depending on how you classify the term "relationship." just because we want to move in together means that we also want to get married only dating for 2 years. because everyone that moves in together gets married. everyone knows that. O.o bastard.
Found another hair. gross. Well, goodnight, sweet dreams or goodmorning or good afternoon. I wish you the best of the best for always and for eternity. If I have offended you in anyway my deepest condolences for it was not my intention to offend but only to liberate my ideas and beliefs.
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