Nails and anorexia

So today I went to the nail salon and got a pedicure and a manicure. It felt oh so good. But I went in there wanting this variety of different Nightmare Before Xmas artwork (seen on left) but ended up coming out with two jack skelington heads and 8 black and blue lined nails (seen on right). He tried (the manicure man) he really did but it was nothing like I could've gotten if I was still in New York (I went there on vacation over New Years...all by myself...go me!).

So tonight I'm going to my friend Elrik's house (who has now been mentioned twice in my blog) to finish our epic Finding Nemo movie adventure. Should be entertaining. He states that he's determined to get me drunk (because I'm 20 and have yet to get drunk). Good luck is all I have to say. lol.

I've gained 2 pounds since yesterday. I'm not sure if it's water weight or from the pizza and 6" philly cheesesteak I had.

But I'm determined to get rid of it by North Carolina. I feel like I'll lose everything on my body in France though so it's a loosely determined goal. Just so long as I don't turn into one of those McDonalds HUGE women I'm just fine. No, I don't mean those women that are on the biggest loser...I mean someone twice their size. I don't think there's anything wrong with being "overweight." Have you ever seen

"Fathead"? He says that there is no proof that being

overweight actually makes your life expectancy go down.

Amazing. Though I still want to be that super skinny, anorexic bikini model, even if it doesn't guarantee I'll live longer. I just like the attention.

That's horrible, I know. But I wonder how those anorexic women feel. I wonder if they're happy with how they look. I wonder if they still count how many grapes they eat even after looking in the mirror. There's a point I feel when I would realize that there was something wrong with me. I'm not there yet and don't think I ever will get there. I did read an article once on a women who had an eating disorder that her doctors didn't even know existed. She knew she had a problem because she wasn't eating enough and kept fainting because of it but she didn't look skinny or like she had a problem. So her doctors just kept shoving her away saying she was fine and that she needed to stop worrying about it. Finally after going to doctor after doctor one told her what

was wrong and that she needed help and helped her to get the help she really needed. Amazing story.

But I finally bought a bikini so I'm happy with myself. ^_^ Even if it's wayyy too cold to use it in Washington. Bring on the beach this Saturday in a whole new state! Doesn't it just look beautiful? I'm so excited! Bring on the warm weather, sun and sand! wahoo!